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| hum..wow havent writtin in like 1 trillions years or something like that  everything is pretty damn good i guess..well other than my FAT F in chemistry :-/ its so hard its killing me either that or im just going to kill myself over it....who the fuck made it so hard?! and its nopt me w/ troubles its like everyone  but anyways enough w/ that...yeah my boyfriend is dayaaam hoootttt hahaha umm i think im tryin out for die lieders just cuz if i kno i dont then next year ill regret so i figure try out i prob wont make it and it doesnt matter if i dont make it cuz i wasnt even going to try out in the first place but if i do make it i wont regret next year wishing that i tryed..which i prob wont but w/e its chilllllllll....
prom oh man im so excitied and im goin w/ my best friend how fun is that going to b!? i love goin as friends no DRAMA wqhen i went w/ matt there was always drama and when i went w/ briggs which was just a friend there was nothing so yea thats exciting and i honestly have no idea how hes doing it rumors are that its good so im happy bout that ive never been asked in a "cute/good way" before haha but i think im donne
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| i honestly feel like im missing something in life..i dont know wat it is.. but im feeling more and more depressed latly. i HATE school yet i like seeing all my friends cuz on the weekends i dont as much and then i love the weekends but hate them cuz i feel like theres nothing to do in GAY POWAY. i miss someone and like i was sayin to sarah i dont think ill ever get over it...i mean i dont cry or anything bout it anymore but ugh it just sux :-/ maybe im just in a really depressing mood ryte now. ugh i hate these moods i really want a guy to get over matt i know that sounds really wrong but sometimes i feel like the only way to get over him is have another guy cuz when i was w/ ben i didnt really like matt and stuff but like i dont know. and the other annoying thing is EVERYONE thinks me and adam like each other we SERIOUSLY DONT!! why cant a girl and guy just hang out as friends these days? wat has the world come too!? sorry i just cant take this shit anymore i want to move i CANT WAIT till college u have NO IDEA!! and im really over the jealousness of matt its really gettin to b annoying yet i put up w/ it i honestly dont know whats wrong w/ me!!!!! ugh i need a fuckin shrink and some anti depressents or something i cant TAKE IITTTTT ill b done ughh | | |
| heyy yea i havent wrote in SO long not that anyone reads these but i like having a reference of my life later so i can look back haha. so anyways ive been actually hanging out w/ adam and michael a lot recently :) ( outta school) cuz obviously in school i always am w/ them but yea i think everyday since sunday and its weds but i dont think today i will...but then michael said hed call meee :) yea but at the moment im waitin for sarah so we can get our eyebrows done. yea very fun. yea and for all of you who care or wonder im so DONE w/ ben lets just say hes an ASS but yea i honestly dont care i thought i would care more but i honestly dont haha w/e me and sarah are done w/ him and ayman...anyways nothing else is really up that i can think of im just having a pretty damn good day or should i say week haha but knoing my luck itll get ruined somehow haha but yea i hope it lasts..byyyyeee oh yea i gave up drinking for lent and yea ive only drank 2 times since it started and once i was allowed too cuz sundays ur allowed too!!! yea im such a good girl its been sooo looonnggggg | | |
| wow i had such an awesome break! one the last night of break like that sat obviously not sunday cuz u cant go out late i went to baraona w/ ben ayman forrest yea and a lot more others im just too lazy to name them haha but yea that was funnnnn aha we didnt get to stay too long tho which was dissapointing but its all good at least it was fun yesterday i went to dinner w/ the same people haha and we watched the usc and oklahoma game and usc kicked ass! and lucky for ben and forrest they bet thier money on them to win so they were pretty happy. afterwards i just hung w/ ben i <3 that boy and im goin to very sad when he leaves for college  but anyways iom goin to big bear w/ this weekend w/ sarah and hhaha again the usual boys will b up there too!! and i really REALLY hope we can go to the charger game cuz ayman can get us tickets! and i REALLY want to goo!! the bad part tho is we prob wont b able to sit by them all but its allllll gooodddd..... well im tiirreedd so im outt byyyee | | |
| so yesterday i went to the car show w/ the usual gang...ayman,ben,forrest, david , shady, ej yeaa those guys haha it was awesome i took like 5 pics in front of the escalade YES IM IN LOVE W/ IT haha yea it was so fun ahah then afterwards we tryed to look for something to do but there was nooo parties or anything so me sarah ben and ayman just decided to go to a movie we saw the darkness which was deffently NOT worth the time or money but w/e it was something to do and i was w/ my fav people <3 haha yea but today i hung w/ matt for once in forever it was awesome i miss that kid! then we went and visited bobby and mike in RB for like 30 min fun stuff
but i CANT believe school is almost here im very upset im having a wonderful break and NOT AT ALL looking forward to school oh well.,i guess  see u all monday | | |
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